The Basket
One knew before starting what was afoot...eyes wide open cannot always save you from giving a damn, though.
If the sins of the mother/father can truly visit upon the child, can vengeance be gained unsolicited through the same channel? I ask this seemingly riddlous question because I believe I was, unbeknownst to my mother or myself, used as an avenging agent of a past grievance my mother had with another woman over a decade ago.
She lives outside her means; is surrounded by greedy, treacherous individuals both in her professional and private lives; and I know all her dirty little secrets- a plus (or minus) of working with her at a place I will refer to as "The Basket". One will explain that creative nom de guerre once I find other employ. She- I believe- is relying on my inherent loyalty (as I have known her since childhood and once had to rely on her for shelter and maternal affection); but I also developed a personality flaw known as a 'civic conscience'...this could mean her undoing as well as many others.
As long as it took me to become gainfully employed in a city this large, I hope none of my readers conscrue this as me biting the hand that feeds me. She has been VERY helpful to me and several others within the past few months I have observed; and I fear that is the only thread that has held this basket of iniquities together for so long. I believe she has a good heart...but she attracts unworthy people, then attempts to pacify them. I keep thinking about "Amistad" and how it has reflected on her and a few others involved that saw the tower leaning but hoped and prayed it would not fall. It was a spot for the "IN" crowd: incompetent, inscrupulous, injust (don't run to Webster's on these un-words!).
I believe I will keep quiet for a time...I have a sweetheart who also works in The Basket and his eyes are wide open too. I dreamt the other night that he found another, more lucrative position elsewhere just after I had. Here's hoping for prevision.
To the most recent 'whistleblower' in my world...I hope this wasn't calculated vengeance...THAT is never rewarded.
If the sins of the mother/father can truly visit upon the child, can vengeance be gained unsolicited through the same channel? I ask this seemingly riddlous question because I believe I was, unbeknownst to my mother or myself, used as an avenging agent of a past grievance my mother had with another woman over a decade ago.
She lives outside her means; is surrounded by greedy, treacherous individuals both in her professional and private lives; and I know all her dirty little secrets- a plus (or minus) of working with her at a place I will refer to as "The Basket". One will explain that creative nom de guerre once I find other employ. She- I believe- is relying on my inherent loyalty (as I have known her since childhood and once had to rely on her for shelter and maternal affection); but I also developed a personality flaw known as a 'civic conscience'...this could mean her undoing as well as many others.
As long as it took me to become gainfully employed in a city this large, I hope none of my readers conscrue this as me biting the hand that feeds me. She has been VERY helpful to me and several others within the past few months I have observed; and I fear that is the only thread that has held this basket of iniquities together for so long. I believe she has a good heart...but she attracts unworthy people, then attempts to pacify them. I keep thinking about "Amistad" and how it has reflected on her and a few others involved that saw the tower leaning but hoped and prayed it would not fall. It was a spot for the "IN" crowd: incompetent, inscrupulous, injust (don't run to Webster's on these un-words!).
I believe I will keep quiet for a time...I have a sweetheart who also works in The Basket and his eyes are wide open too. I dreamt the other night that he found another, more lucrative position elsewhere just after I had. Here's hoping for prevision.
To the most recent 'whistleblower' in my world...I hope this wasn't calculated vengeance...THAT is never rewarded.
Labels: corruption, embezzlement, employment
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